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Closed Doors

..and I hear him saying, 
Don’t Forget to Close the Door

Can you think of a time in your life where you recognized the relationship(s) you were entangled was destined for destruction? Can you pin point the person(s) whom you were so emotionally attached, head over heels, crazy in love--but the love was toxic? Do you remember physically letting him go, but subconsciously your choice of all future persons in your intimate space being a mere reflection of him? Do you recall chasing the feeling of connection that same emotion that he gave you? I often wonder, how many times have you said, “I won’t go back” or “enough is enough” only to return? I wonder, how long have you remained mentally imprisoned of doubt and fear and silently surrendering to the thought, “I can’t do better?" 
Take a silent moment and think about just that.
Are you with me now? 
Good. 
I would now like to take a brief moment to prepare those whom are willing to receive this word and encourage you with a word that God has willingly deposited inside of me. He said to me, “…and this time my child, don’t forget to close the door.”
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Today, I do not write to denounce emotions. I simply come to encourage you to take an intentional assessment of self and the checking of our feelings. I write candidly in this moment informing you that these same emotions we have allowed to be a compass in our decision making have led to doors being left wide open, doors half closed and doors left with the smallest of crack with just enough room to return to our safe place, the cycle. It is in this place of emotion where we become easily accessible--for we have allowed room for our emotions to be used as pawns to get us back to where we used to be.  It is in this place where we begin to rationalize, overthink, become complacent, and stagnant--submitting to exactly where the enemy wants us. The enemy wastes not time for he, choices to celebrate what he sees as an ALMOST inevitable loss. He celebrates the small wins because he expects you to fall, submit and give in. He celebrates the crack that you’ve left open. 
..BUT GOD says, close the door.
God says, “I am the Lord”. I am your Father. I am Jehovah Jireh.

Why do you question the promises of my predestined provision to you?

I have told you this once before if you walk by the Spirit, you will not gratify the desires of the flesh.  (Galatians, 5:16)
I hear him say, BELIEVE and I will restore you. 
Close the door, my child. 
Close the door on, we can remain friends—when I have called you to be a wife. 
Close the door on, empty promises—for you stand on solid rock for which I have planted you. 
Close the door on reading the late night text—for I will provide the comfort and attention you desire.
Close the door on the NEED to respond—I command you to pray. 
Close the door my child. 
For the door that I will open will be greater than you’ve imagined. 

“Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert.” Isaiah 43:18-19, KJV

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