…I exited the church doors knowing that I’d made one of the best decisions of my life and in that decision I felt free.
“So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.”
John 8:36, NIV
I strutted proudly to my car and greeted people along the way. I got inside my vehicle, wound down the driver’s side window and turned up Tasha Cobb’s, “Put a Praise on it.” I felt so good—I smiled, I thanked God and I couldn’t wait to share with him that I obeyed the spirit and accepted my call into salvation. I was thrilled. I pulled into the parking lot still singing and humming all of Tasha’s Cobb’s adlibs—man, that day I could even sing—yeah, it was great. My pace to the door of our home slowed, and I was reminded in my excitement that my celebration of new life may not seem like a victory to the one with whom I shared these four walls. Before I put the key into the door, I prayed silently and ended with “Devil you will not have my joy, you will not have my joy—you didn’t give it to me anyway.” This time I smiled at myself, and for the first time, I felt God smile with me. It was in that moment I’d realized what it felt like to love someone enough to let them go and in the urge to share the good news, it was no longer for recognition, but my yearning to be the example. It was in that moment I uttered “more than I care about any relationship, I care about your soul even more.” So, I inserted the key into the lock and I walked through the door and shared each moment, with a smile. I said, “Today I recommitted my life back to God. I was initially nervous, but this welcoming feeling of assurance overcame me, and in that feeling, I knew He never left me.” I continued on with much detail and ended with, “I’ll also be getting baptized after the completion of my new covenant classes.” He looked to me with a smile, a nod of his head and said, “I’m so happy for you Simone, I’m very happy for you.” We embraced each other.
I walked back into the bedroom and reminded myself to keep my smile. I reminded myself that the goal of the enemy is to lead me back into old habits, old cycles—and what better way to do it than to bring forth truth—living in a relationship that is unequally yoked—so be firm in your posture. I spoke out to God and said, I humbly give up my will for Yours, and I let go of what I’ve idolized as being right, and seek all things right in You. Before getting up from the carpet, my last thought was, “because the truth of the matter is, he may not come with you.” I smiled once more and lifted myself off the ground, and spoke as I wrote, “the day is coming a lot sooner than you think, and you will shed all excess weight.”